Knowledge is sometimes frightening... I've learnt something new I can apply in my life... And the devil, prompt as ever, pops up to try and tempt me. And if that doesn't work, he tries to make me depressed... Bringing back memories. I'm sorry but my mind belongs to God and I will not be deceived anymore. I will not be brought down by these thoughts. I know God has a wonderful plan for me and He's given me all I need to carry it out. Praise God for Jesus and the magnificent way out for all of us!

Reverend Patsy and her sister Reverend Trina encouraged me today. Said they looked forward to seeing me come into Rhema. Lynette explained to them that I'd already decided to join Rhema, just that NS would be holding me back for 2 years. And they truly looked glad to hear that. I was fidgeting all the way cos here I was standing in front of 2 powerfully annointed women of God. ( 3 if you count my sister, Lynette :D )

I've been thinking about a decision that I wanted to make. I've realised that I have no right making that decision anytime soon. I wouldn't want the feeling that I settled for it. I feel that i must really want it to qualify. I have no idea what I'm trying to say either. But anyhow, I've been given a glimpse of whats available. If I want to see whats past the horizon, I have to keep walking.

How long can you keep this up?
As long as it takes for you to realise that We're victors. And that I am not going to turn away. And that you have no right being around here. Get lost...

Today is a day of firsts.... First time I washed the car in I dunno how many years... Since I was living at Jasmine Road I think. Thats almost 10 years ago. It was really fun washing the car listening to Story of the Year blasting on the car stereo. Spunky running around my feet...

Another first was eating with Papa in the living room... Cos mummy wasn't home. So we drove out to buy food from the coffee shop nearby. When we came home, we ate in the living room!!! Its a mini-miracle cos my dad NEVER eats in the living room. He hardly ever sits down to watch TV even. He would rather stand behind the sofa then sit on it. Makes me wonder why he bought a sofa set if he never uses it.

Last day of 'school' tomorrow. ARGHHH... I miss it already... But its helped me find a direction again. Prayer attracts my attention... Felt led to cover Gloria in prayer for her trip to Thailand. So exciting. Cos if prayer really means speaking out what God wants and speaking it out to be fulfilled then I want to do it. Ever since the Youth Camp last year, prayer has caught my interest. If God can do so much through the little that I knew, and what little I did, then I want to do more and expect more!!

::: Verse of the Day :::
Righteousness goes before him and prepares the way for his steps.
| Psalms 85:13 |

Day 2 of Rhema Open House 2004... What can I say? I'm constantly reminded why I want to go Rhema. The fire of passion is just contagious. Doesn't make it any better that people I know are going in before me. Maybe its pride. Maybe I don't like to be told about what I found out about first. Maybe its just male competiveness... Jealousy. But I should be glad for them. I just have to wait and be patient and change my perspective about this.

Today we learnt about the power of the tongue... That we have been given the authority to have what we ask for.
1) Say
2) Do not doubt
3) Believe

Too often we believe without saying... the word 'say' is repeated 3 times in Mark 11:23. Shows how important it is to speak it out. But its not just saying something. It involves knowing what power is behind those words and knowing whats in store for us. We need faith to believe that the things that God promised us in the bible will come to pass. And not waver when things seem to be going wrong. I think God is trying to tell me something cos its like He's been building up to this for quite a while.

Went shopping with my parents and Lynette just now... Bought a whole new formal wardrobe from John Little at Plaza Singapura... 2 new shirts, a pair of pants, boxer shorts, a tie, a belt and 6 pairs of socks. All for under $100... =D
Came back home exahausted... Shopping takes its toll on me. Slept for more than three hours. Woke up at almost 9 for dinner.

The thought that comes to me is. I know it is possible, but it requires a lot of change, a lot of effort. But the difference is where I am in all this. I'm not in a pit struggling to please a God who is far away ignoring my plight. He's a good God who has pulled me out and seated me beside him. He's given me what I need. Its my choice whether I want to win or not. Do I want this mountain around?

::: Verse of the Day :::
For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, "Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
| Mark 11:23-24 |

Its one of the sundays where I come home straight after practice. Feels funny... Not used to sunday evenings alone. I shall attempt to blog alot this evening.. Got lots of time to do so while waiting for my dinner... Dale's gonna make soup for me. Once in a lifetime thing. :D

Let me start with an issue I've been struggling with... Finding a girlfriend, or rather, a life partner. I've been telling a few people about my concerns and most of them have been giving good advice. 'Be patient', 'The time will come', 'Don't worry', 'Try to think of other things', and 'You still have so long to go!'
Well, as always, I try my best to put emotions away and pray that it doesn't overwhelm me. Lynette says it involves the renewing of my mind. Meaning I have to change my way of thinking to reflect what the word of God promises instead of depending on my mood and emotions. I know this and I need to actually do it...

And so today I went to church late... I was supposed to have bible study at 10am with Gerald and Andy but I woke up only at 9:45am. So i was super late... And Andy was quite pissed at me. Kinda affected me cos I had to teach the bible study. But thankfully everything went well... Apologised to Andy after that.
Oooh!!! I just remembered that I'm going to Rhema tomorrow for the open house. Formal clothes again... :P

Was thinking about the sermon today. Found that it was a little defeatist. Like accepting what the world throws at us too easily. I don't like it when God is reduced to almost nothing... As if He is just a mindset or a way of thinking. I will not lay down and accept it because the Word of God says differently! It promises health, long life, and everything we need. Don't say that there are somethings that we don't understand. Don't say God took away your loved one. Don't say sickness is a lesson from God... Its a load of crap. God doesn't kill people or make them sick. He loves every one of us.
It does say that the world will be screwed up. It does say that we have a hope in His son Jesus Christ. And it does say that we don't have to live with certain crap. We have authority!!! Why do we suffer then? Because of consequence, because of the reckless actions or neglect of others and because of the devil and his schemes. I'm sorry but don't blame God for things He didn't do... My God protects me from sickness, disease and harm. And I will not be swayed...

And so there was practice just now... It was find except for this one song. Found it weird that they kept looking at me whenever the music sounded dead. Its like I don't control the life of the music. Played through it a few times and everytime it sounded dead, I had the impression that they thought it was my fault. Everything sounded better when Joe started playing rhythm instead of fills/padding... We needed someone to drive the song. But its always 'blame the drummer'... Muahaha.

Which leads to the next topic. I feel that I'm either
1) Being rather sensitive to comments lately...
2) Being easily irritable
3) Being under the scrutiny of people
4) Being under the scrutiny of people just waiting for me to make a mistake.

Lets just continue to see what happens.

I've got 5 months of holiday. But I don't know what to do during this time... The thought of going somewhere for a holiday is attractive, but I have to consider that I need to save money for Rhema Bible School after NS. Might consider looking for a part time job... But might interfere with things like church camp or other workshops or seminars that I might have. What to do, what to do...?

What a long day I had... But its better than staying home the whole day. Liwei went in to NS this morning... He seemed a little apprehensive which is understandable. I must pray for him. This week has been a real struggle for me... As they say, an idle mind is the devil's workshop. Hopefully, I've gotten past that already... :P At least I have weekend with things to do. Tomorrow we'll be having movie magiXS... Bought the snacks after sending Liwei off and meeting Raymond at NUS. I hope everything goes well tomorrow.

Got the words below from Jerome's blog... I couldn't have put it better. Its a comfort to know that you're not alone in your struggle. That someone else is in this battle worth fighting for... That someone else knows that its worth waiting, worth sacrificing temporary superficial relationships now to prepare for something better that God has in store.

tonight i'll lay down on my bed
close my eyes and say a prayer for you
to lie beside you when i awake....
again and again and again.......
i wish to wipe the tears
you weep wondering where i am
you r everything and so much more
if you would only give hope a chance
i care for a love i havent experienced
is it crazy to say i miss you?
i havent met you....
yet i miss you.....
put my head to sleep tonight Jesus resting in your sweet embrace
i pray she is resting in your embrace too
keep us safe till that day..
i will wait.......
on you

The wrong places... I keep looking in the wrong places. Its fun to let your imagination run... Pretending that you're one of them. Pretending that you fit in. But you'll never fit in. Its like the person who says he is remaining pure for his future partner. But the question I ask is... Is there anyone who wants to sleep with him in the first place. And how would he react if he was hot stuff... It takes temptation to another level.

And here I am wishing for temptation. Ok maybe not wishing for temptation, but wishing that I could be like them. I try to convince myself that I'll stay the same even if I looked like them. But when I dig deep to think about it, I know I wouldn't have the willpower. I know I would welcome temptation like a good friend. Maybe its better off that I'm not subject to temptation like that.

I'm tired of looking... Why do I keep looking? Time for bed....

Its over.... My last hurdle... Now I have to wait and see if I cleared it. I feel that I will but there's this uncertainty in myself. I shall leave it to God now. Spent the rest of the evening at the airport. Its become almost a custom for me to go to the airport after an exam.. Talked to God, read the bible a bit, thought a lot. I want to be serious for Him already. I've had enough of failed attempts, enough of wrong choices, enough of feeling that I'm not trying hard enough. Commit myself to a new assault on my emotions and on the temptations.

The devil knows my weak points... And he will exploit them. I know he tried to when I was sleeping through my dreams. But I have my Rock, my Tower and my Fortress. He protects me. He is what I cling to... When I am weak, He is strong. He is my joy. I will choose whats right!

Holding back from returning an insult to someone who insults you is not easy... I don't mind it coming from people I'm close to, people whom I'm comfortable with. It just irritates me when it comes from someone extra... I've nothing good to say so I shall shut up.

3 more days till exams and 3 more days to freedom... I can hardly wait. Like a breath of fresh air after being underwater for far too long... I look forward to new challenges... Although I can't say I've mastered the ones that have passed, I feel that its time to throw off these shackles and take flight... Its time to face another hurdle in my life. And looking back on what has passed I can't help but feel a sense of security that I'm going to be alright...

Yes I know I'll accomplish the impossible... But I don't want to take for granted that its on my own. Never on my own... Because I'm vulnerable on my own. Like Agent Smith said in The Matrix 3... Humans are weak and deserve to die... But we've got an advocate in Jesus Christ. Thats why we should be confident. Because of what our confidence is in... Sometimes it seems that its all fake because of what we're going through at the moment. But personally I know that its a lie to try and shake my faith. Because I always get through... Praise God for that.

Movie MagiXS...
It took something like this to awaken me... I'm sort of glad that it did. Really looking forward to the event next Saturday. Most probably be screening 'The Last Samurai'. But its subject to availability. But i'm sure it'll be out. God puts things in place. If not there'll be a good replacement. Thats God's way of doing things. If you seek to do things for His Glory, it always works out. Designed a flyer for the event... So after I check out the availability of the movie tmr, I'm going to church to print the flyers... :-D

Gonna check if my classmates are playing soccer... Got only one hour left to play...

Eeek... Its things like this which really disappoint me. Amazing how even the leaders are doing it. But as always... God tells me to focus on myself and keep improving myself. I despise prejudice... Unfounded prejudice. I will not be brought down by this. Enough!

Thanks Pam for your advice this afternoon... But I've been snapped back to reality by reality...

Dear God, I don't know if I'm wrong to say this... But I just pray that you'll prove them wrong. I pray that in my weakness and what seems to be incompetence, you'll shine through. Show them that your Glory is not restricted by human capabilities but rather on our willingness to obey. Dear God, I pray that you'll once again be so real. I commit this event to you. Like all the others, only for Your Glory. I pray also that mindsets be broken. That we'll be united as a body of Christ. I pray that Lord you'll use me to be a dangerous man for you. Lord you have shown that 2004 will indeed be a great year. Through the events that we've had you have not gone against your word. Lord I pray for more... I pray that more will come to know you. I pray that more will come back to you. Lord I also pray that you'll show me what I have to do.
In Jesus Precious Name, Amen...

You foolish brave boy... You silly hypocritical girl...
The world is full of those who screw things up. A world full of misunderstanding. What does it mean? My greatest fear is that I become like the people I despise. Doing the things I hate. Whats the use of being honest if you're honestly wrong? Whats the point of being open and accountable if you just don't see the mistakes you've made? Turning a deaf ear to people who advise. Its just pointless don't you see? What are you waiting for anyway?

And then it rears its head and bites me back. Always always biting back.

Daryl, you focus on improving yourself... You look at the mirror before anywhere else.

But it cuts to the bone... The fact that I struggle so hard every single day... To keep from doing wrong and there they are living it out freely thinking that they are right!!

You burn this pride right now. What are you doing this for? Who are you doing this for? For yourself? For your glory? Don't you think I can see what you are doing? Don't you think I know that sometimes you think you're better than all of them? Don't you know I can see your heart? Your intentions? You stop pointing fingers right now and focus. You have work to do, people to pray for.

Ok... I hear and I will obey.

I think this is hilarious...


By the way, the girl's name... It is a coincidence.

The ENMM project submission has been postponed to friday!!! Yeah... Thank God... Get to concentrate on my Comm. Skills User Manual now.

You don't get what you want and so you look around for someone who will give it to you. Then when you find someone who has it, you 'fall in love'? Is that what love is? Is love given to someone having things which you could use? Is love found in finding a pretty girlfriend? Or for girls, finding a guy who has a car? Whats the difference between this and my dog, Spunky, who comes to you only when he knows you're going to shower attention on him? And runs off to find my mom when I stop petting him.

And its times like this you just want to push everyone away. But hope that someone special would filter through. But this is life. Not some fairytale. Cos fairytales only happen when you're blinded by love.
Maybe it is the chocolate...

I want someone who is not so cliche. Someone who is unique and true. Someone wild but serious when its time to be. Someone mature but childishly fun. Someone that will intrigue me. Someone who knows things that I don't. Someone with character. Someone like me but totally different. Someone to challenge me me when I'm up and comfort me when I'm down. Someone who can be a friend, a sparring partner, a stranger, a foe, a lover, an explorer, a slacker. Someone who doesn't care how I look but appreciates my style, sees beauty in me, thinks I'm cool. Someone who makes things interesting. Someone who's willing to switch places when I'm feeling like crap. Someone to remind me to go the right way at the right time. Someone to reassure me that I'm alright. Someone who would question my decisions not for the sake of it but to ensure that I'm doing the right thing. Someone to make me feel important. Someone who can be practical to convince me and illogical like normal women. Someone who leans on me, depends on me, loves me. Someone to stick with me even when times are bad. Someone who will help come up with ideas to get out of the rut instead of blaming me.

Its a long list but thats how I feel. Congratulations...

Woke up really grumpy this morning. Wasn't feeling good since last night... It hit me like a sledgehammer. But I'm feeling better now. I think... Didn't really feel better till after service when I saw Jeremy, Joshua & Nicole getting baptised. Then had discipleship group with the younger guys. After that I bummed around in the sanctuary while they had practice. Went for dinner with Xiong, Joe, Dennis & Thomson after that. Ate expensive chicken rice at Katong Mall then went to parkway where I had expensive Anderson's Ice Cream. I think I'm getting addicted to it.

School starts again tomorrow. God help me through another two weeks. I just wanna get out of school. This chapter of my life is long overdue.

This is my second poem in three days.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Rounded up at emotion's edge
Down beside these fragile feelings
A single image captures my soul
It leaves me silent, breathless, cold

Unable to shatter sad dark windows
That gives a glimpse, gems contained
Infinite sadness that torments daily
It leaves her forlorn, joyless, angry

What do you seek which is so hard to find...
Among bleak circumstances you hide behind
The sunlight illuminates the way home
But you stay lost continuing to roam

An inspiration in that angelic face
Like a statue of marble in a forest space
What thoughts lie behind that beautiful stare
Delicate hidden opinions of utter despair

Passion like this offers no substitution
Imagine the stings of patience burn
Logic and truth start to disappear
And what was forbidden seems so clear
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

Went to Chinablack yesterday to celebrate Cheng's birthday. First time there so it was really weird to see more guys than girls dancing on the podiums. Its just wrong... Anyway, I enjoyed myself dancing. Although it was to crap music. Give me drum & bass anyday! Had some drinks with Matt, Ziig, the birthday boy Cheng and his army friends. Nicole and her friends came later on. Got to dance with her. haha... Quite fun.

After Matt and Ziig left, I had to take care of Cheng cos he had a little too much to drink. Quite cute to see him staggering around. The funniest thing was when we were going to the toilet, he couldn't reach in time and threw up across a girl's foot. She was too stunned to say anything as we walked past her into the toilet. Hahah!!! So we stayed there till almost 2 before taking a cab home together.

Woke up at 3pm this afternoon... and wrote the poem in the last post. Went to church for the steamboat thing. Life is good now. After the hectic week I just had. Its good to be able to slack again. Got to gear up for the final 2 weeks of school though. God help me...

Happy Easter...

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
I'm choking...
But its not the smoke
Rather, its the familiarity of these faces
The futility of these facades
I will not find her here.
This I'm sure

I'm wondering...
But its not the problem
Rather, a secret desire waiting to be fulfilled
Amidst the dancing sea
Silently its been killed
By the deeper dream within

I'm deciding...
But its not the choices
Rather, whether this drink will quench
The thirst that rages
It stages the act where
the consequences are forgotten
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

Here I am in school again. Was at Jasmine's house last night doing the project. Still quite a lot that hasn't been done but I hope its enough to get through. Playing with the database using JDBC is difficult.

Its finally over... Had FYP evaluation just now. My interface got shot down by the evaluator cos she's a design freak. Muahaha... Nevermind. Glad everythings done. I should be worried that I'll fail but I don't think I will. I hope I won't be made to eat my words.

Sometimes I question myself. Whats the purpose of going through this course? Why do I need this diploma? I'm not even doing a very good job at completing it... Not that I'm not trying.

Can't wait to go church tonight... Muahaha...

::: Quote of the Day :::
Earlier i said that wisdom and strength and ability are yours. Even mercy if you require. So just thank the Lord for his enabling!! Going off now but God will never leave nor forsake you.

Questions that distract. Not that they are meaningless. But I find that they play no role in your relationship with God. How do you lose your salvation? You can't! Because as long as you confess your sins to Jesus, you WILL be forgiven? What about what was mentioned in Mark 3:29?
But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven; he is guilty of an eternal sin

Jesus was talking about the pharisees who were saying that Jesus was casting out demons with the help of Beelzebub (a demon)... Thats why Jesus said that they will never be forgiven. Because they were saying that Jesus, their source of forgiveness, was from the devil! So that ruled out them being forgiven. I also believe that the pharisees could be forgiven if they had confessed and repented. So the only unforgivable sin is if you choose not to ask for forgiveness.... AND THAT IN ITSELF IS FORGIVABLE IF YOU CONFESS AND REPENT!

So I conclude that there is no sin which is unforgivable.

:: Verse of the Day :::
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
| 1 John 1:9 |

In response to the lies in my head...
I was searching for the verse "Be still and know that I am God" from the book of Psalms... and I stumbled across today's verse of the day. Those words mean something. Its so beautiful. The uncertainty of this world is surpassed by the certainty of His Love. Why? Because in Proverbs 10:12b it says, Love overrides all sins. Because of His love He died for us. And he did it for us right?

Therefore, since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because he who has suffered in his body is done with sin. As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. | 1 Peter 4:1-2 |

So since He died for us and rose again... Since He paid the price, we no longer belong to the devil. And we no longer have to live the way of the world. We no longer have to follow the worlds 'rules' to get through this life. We have a higher power to appeal to. A God that is alive, a God that listens, a God that answers.

For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do--living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. They think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation, and they heap abuse on you. | 1 Peter 4:3-4 |

No surprise there. It says so in the bible so thats what we must come to expect. Ok maybe the people around you are nice enough not to actually abuse you. Not that they're pagans, but they give you a raised eyebrow and that questioning look. And you feel that they're just trying to 'accomodate you'. Same thing. They think it strange! But further down in 1 Peter 4:12 it says its blessed to be shamed for the name of Christ.

What do we have to give? If anything, we spread the love of God, His grace & mercy and His gift of Life. We also give ourselves. In service to Him so that He may be glorified through our thoughts, our words, our attitudes and actions. No purpose? Its when we believe that He is our Lord and saviour that our journey to finding our purpose begins! Its a progressive journey. The more we move in the right direction, the more is revealed to us. There's our hope and the promise to us. There's where our faith should be.

::: Verse of the Day :::
Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
| 1 Corinthians 13:8-13 |

The lies in my head...

And I have gotten you under my thumb. You cannot escape, you miserable piece of carcass. You are going to be stuck in there for a long time and while you are in there. You are mine. Because you belong to me. Because I own you. I own everything in this stinking world. Sold out by the first of your kind. There is no hope for you. Everyday will be a slow painful journey. You look forward to something but when you get there, it will leave you empty. There is no purpose anymore. Give up.

You think you will get off easy because you are a Christian? Come on. Its just a title. It does not really mean anything. You think you have something to give? What can you offer that is of any use to anyone in this world? Why would anyone look up to you? Why would anyone love you? You think everyone is like this Jesus? Come on! Unconditional love is only for the stupid, half witted losers who cannot think for themselves. It is actually called pity...

Wake up to reality you poor fool. Smell the rotting flesh which is your own. Do not think that just because you do not agree with how this world works you can continue living in your fairy tale life. Do not think you can get away with it. This is the world. My world. My rules. There is no hope for you. Especially not on your knees in the privacy of your room. Do not bother crying because He is not going to hear.

no meaning.
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The Passion of the Christ... Wow... Just wow...
Don't tell me its too graphic. The TV, the theatres show things like this every day. But this... this is real. It happened. He did it for you. For me. He was God but still helplessly human... It was sick what they did. And He didn't have to... The thing that hit me was that He could have given up at any point. The devil taunting Him at every moment. Urging Him to give up and break. But He didn't. So that He could fulfill the prophecy. So that we would have a chance.

Would you go through all that? I don't think I could even if I wanted to. I don't think I'll have the willpower to do it. But He... He would hammer the nails in Himself if He had to... He stood up to continue being scourged, he stood up to continue carrying the cross. For us...
And it brings everything into a grim reality. A real perspective. Suddenly what I'm doing isn't enough anymore. Its a poor excuse for service. We complain of tiredness, discomfort, inconvenience when we serve. But do we remember what He did? Can we ever come close?

Never

I'll be playing guitar for maundy Thursday's service and drums for Easter Sunday. Was in the church sanctuary from 11 to 6 today. As Lynette reminded me... 'Better is one day...'

Still thinking about what Sarah wrote in her blog... Wonder what I did to make her write those things? And who should I believe? I personally think I'm not very good looking. But not till the extent of being 'really ugly'... When the bunch of us had supper at newton, I got the opportunity to talk to her and get to know her a little bit more. And I still don't know where that comment came from. She seemed nice enough.

This post is dedicated to Sarah
I wish you all the best in all you do because honesty goes a long way.
What a day... Rushed to finish my project. Debugged some of the pages for the Major Project. I think its more or less done. Glad I got to contribute something. :P

Had to rush down for the concert after school. The auditorium was packed man... And us musicians got front row seats. We didn't play very well. Could have been a lot better. I got some nice comments from a few people though. Just glad that they enjoyed the show.

Looking too hard and too far is foolish cos you'll soon realise that it was always there...
Why you took so long to find it was because you took that long to change...

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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::: Lyric of the Day :::
Goodnight goodnight
Sleep well and when you dream
Dream of me
Goodnight

Good day...

2004 will be a year for more. More power, more glory, more manifestation, more saved, more filled with the Spirit, more healed...

Any doubts? I don't... I'm seeing changes in people I never expected would change. (that includes myself)

What is it to be Christian?
Its about acknowledging that we're saved and then worshipping God for His grace and mercy. And its about telling others about it as well.

How do you bring this message across without offending?
I believe we have to ask why it offends in the first place... Basically people don't like to hear that they're damned for eternity. It doesn't make them feel comfortable.
"I don't have a problem with you, why are you saying these things about me?"
Then there are those who say, "I've made it this far without Him, why do I need Him now?" Which in a way is true... Why would you? Why not wait until something goes terribly wrong then blame Him for it. Its much easier like that isn't it?

I don't believe that there's a surefire way to prevent people from feeling offended. After all, its almost like a conspiracy... People feel more offended by questions than by people asking to do surveys, or for donations. They're more offended by the things that matter. Things on TV, in the movies, on the radio, said by their friends and colleagues don't offend them half as much. They enjoy it even...
So how do you get past this? 2 things come to mind... Prayer and by speaking to their spirits... Cos their minds won't be able to accept it...

Practice again later at SCGS... Really really really want everything to flow smoothly. If we can't get it by today, i think i'll withdraw. Cos I don't want to spoil the concert for them.